F O R E V E R M I L L S .

To be honest, I highly doubt I can ever be in a relationship again. I’m not over past relationships. I still think of the what ifs, what I had lost, gain and all that crazy complicated crap that ‘love’ has ever made me feel. I am not confident of the way I look, therefore I am insecure. Not having much confidence as of right now does not mean I will feel that way for life. I will work towards to a better me and that day comes, I will probably be more open to dating again. I want to be able to respect, love, and honor myself before I can do that for someone else. I am afraid to love, to not be able to provide someone else with what they need. I’m am scared and that is what gets me the most about relationships and falling in love again.

But I wouldn’t mind a man…..

A man who can sweep me off my feet and who can help me to a better path in life is the type of man I am most drawn to. A man who can help motivate myself and can continue to do so are my most favorite. A man who can help me decide on the most simplest situations like skittles or starburst to complex situations like family matters. I adore a man who is full of support. A man who can compliment me everyday and can give me confidence. A man who does not only need to tell me he loves me but can show it and live up to it. A man I can see long term or a future with is a man I want to meet. A man with a future with me.

But till then, I have some work to and time will only tell when this miracle will happen to me.

I’ve been a bitch this whole day.

& I can’t explain it. It just might be that it’s my time of the month. :O

I don’t know who my real friends are anymore or if I really have any. It’s weird. I could use to count on people. Well certain people. Like I know as we grow up we all drift in different directions but it’s like almost summer break and most of my highschool friends should be done with their first year of college. Most of them or like none of them haven’t or don’t even think about contacting me since they’ve been off. You may think that I’m weird, but wouldn’t you like for someone to hit you up sometimes? I don’t know how to explain this inner feeling/thought. Hahaha. I’d feel a bit better if some times these people would just hit me up, but I guess. Life goes on, hustle hard and get somewhere.

This vlog is taking so long to be converted or put together. Wish it would hurry up a little. -_- Anyways haven’t posting up on tumblr for a while. Wish I was on here more often like I use to. Had a hell of a night on saturday. Partied my ass off and I’m doing it again this saturday at MYTH night club. Meet me there people! It’s Doll house theme and its going to be fun! :)

Listening to such sad songs. I wish someone can hold me. :(

If i had a dollar for every time you crossed my mind, i would only have one; because you never left.

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Trust is so hard to build with people nowadays.

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Don’t play with my feelings because you’re unsure of yours.

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Maybe God wanted us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet that person; we will know how to be grateful.

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I’d rather be in a few relationships & have it mean something than to have been in many & not feel a thing.

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I may look happy, but you have no idea what’s happening inside me.

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When you say “Fuck Love” you mean fuck that person who couldn’t treat you right.

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